As I prepare to do my devotional this morning I sit and I wonder do I even hear God anymore? am I listening to Him? am I doing one or the other? am I doing both?
why is this so hard!?
Hearing is the ability to perceive sounds or information while Listening is paying attention to what your hearing.
"your not listening to me" I say this to Eli all the time. I know he hears that I am talking with him but I can tell HES NOT LISTENING.
am I doing this to the Lord? can I hear him talking to me but I'm not listening?
YES! I do this more frequently then I would like to admit.
The Lord speaks to us in so many different ways. Through Scripture, He gives us dreams and visions and through other Christ followers. recognizing where he is speaking to me is where I'm having a hard time.
a lot of you know about our recent miscarriage and this has still been one of the harder experiences I've had. I believed whole heartedly that the Lord spoke to me for years that I would have a large family with several little kiddos running around my house. this came to a halting stop when Zach and I didn't agree on a number of kids and he felt done and I did not. when we were on the same page with being ok with having another and this other came along I was over the moon. The Lord was blessing me with what I believed He had said to me.
Long story short I am in a huge doubting phase of whether I can actually hear him? or am I just not listening? am I not paying attention to what I am hearing?
The Lord is not trying to make this difficult for us to hear him, He's screaming at us. He's always helping, talking and showing us! But its our eyes, its our ears and our mouths that are getting in the way. Psalm 23 says " The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want. He makes me lie down in green pastures. He leads me beside still waters, He restores my soul. He leads me in paths of righteousness for his names sake. Even though I walk through the valley of shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff they comfort me. You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies; you anoint my head with oil; my cup overflows. Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life, and I shall dwell in the house of the Lord forever."
The Lord is always with us and he will always be speaking to us, are we listening?
Finding Freedom in the Holy Spirit
Paul begins Romans 8 with a very bold statement by first saying “1. So now there is no condemnation for those who belong to Christ Jesus.”
In today’s terms this is a guilty man or a woman standing in front of a judge on death row and hearing the words “not guilty, let him go free.”
Truth is we are all on “death row” for judgement day when we stand before Jesus. Not one of us has the strength or ability to uphold Gods Holy law. Without Jesus, the power of His spirit in our lives we are hopeless.
BUT, the biggest butt of all! He has already declared us not guilty and has given us an opportunity of freedom from sin and power to do HIS will.
Romans 8:2. “And because you belong to him, the power of the life-giving Spirit has freed you from the power of sin that leads you to death.”
The Holy Spirit friends. This is real. Verse 2 tells us now that we belong to Him we have his life given spirit in us! He gives us this power that we need to fulfill a Christ like life. WE ARE FREE!
Romans 8:5 “Those who are dominated by the sinful nature think about sinful things, but those who are controlled by the Holy Spirit think about things that please the Spirit”
Paul continues to tell us the warnings of being controlled by sinful nature and the horrific ending of death due to it. But letting the spirit control your mind leads to life and peace. Our sinful human race will never obey God. That is why those who are controlled by their sinful nature can never please God. BUT this is the good news, we are NOT controlled by our sinful nature. As a Christ follower, we have the Spirit controlling and giving us the power we need to please God every day.
So, in that my thoughts are where in my life do I need more Spirit given strength to please God? Here are my personal struggles. I am not a murderer, I am not an adulteress, I do not steal, cheat but maybe I say a small white lie here or there. I compare, I judge and I “know” what’s better for people. (I can make choices for them that are better for them). My sin is that I think I am better than some people. “well at least I don’t murder people” or “I would never spend my money that way” and the most said “their parenting skills are slacking”. Who am I? I have no place to put myself into ANYONE else’s life.
My prayer is that I will be filled with the Spirit for the strength that I need to have grace and mercy toward others so that I can be pleasing to God in my life. No one else’s.
Am I Enough?
Have you ever had the thought “this is too small, or not good enough?”
For example, have you been in a situation where someone is asking for money to raise for a charity or a family in need and all you have is like $1 maybe $5 and you decide to just not give it because its “not enough.”
Have you ever had the thought “I should text her, I should call her, we should hang out, but I don’t know she probably wouldn’t like me, she probably doesn’t want to deal with my kids, well I can’t relate to her so it probably wouldn’t be good to hang out, she has enough people to tell her she’s amazing I don’t need to.”
ALL OF THIS! I have done!
On a daily basis, I tell myself “it’s too small, it’s not enough”
My head: “the house isn’t clean enough, my kids are patient enough, I didn’t get enough bible reading done today, I didn’t donate to my friends go-fund me, nah I’m not going to text her shell think it’s weird” so on and so on it goes ALL DAY!
Friends this is so wrong. Every little bit counts. For everything.
If that friend who gave me a $5 gift card to Starbucks decided it was too small of a gift I would have never had that nice quiet moment to myself with a hot cup of coffee.
If the 200 people who decided to donate $5 to that go-fund me decided it wasn’t enough, that little girl would have been $1,000 short for her surgery.
In a time of need if my friend didn’t come over and bring me dinner and let me word vomit all over her where would I be emotionally? If she doubted herself and thought I didn’t need her would I have been able to pull through it?
If the little boy with the 5 barley loaves and 2 fish decided it wasn’t enough and kept it for himself Jesus wouldn’t have been able to perform one of the biggest miracles.
So much in our lives we belittle ourselves and think there is something bigger and better out there someone else can offer.
If we are offering nothing to God, he will have nothing to use. BUT here’s the good news friends! God can take what little we have and turn it into something great!
So, my question for us is: How much or any am I giving to God?
What’s holding us back?
I am a mommy of 2 little boys and a wife of 1 amazing husband! I love natural living and essential oils. Follow my journey here while I navigate life and make fun stuff with Oils!